Journal of Awakening
The flagship text from my orignal web site:
In 1995 I underwent a quickening of the spiritual process that was beyond
my wildest expectations. The inensity of the process resulted in a radical and
(eventually) stable recognition of my real nature, and in another defining moment,
the recognition of the non-separate, non-local, and dreamlike nature of all
existence. This journal,comprising a time span of 16 months, is a highly detailed
account of my experiences and, though it contains some spiritual jargon, is
meant for anyone at any level of spiritual maturity,who is not only interested in the
spiritual process, but also in a description of very real results of practice.
Phil's 1998 India Travelogue
In late 1998, I had the fortuitous circumstance of a company sabbatical, along
with saved up vacation time (and extra money), afforded me the opportunity
to travel to India for a two month tour of that amazing country.
The pages of the travelogue are the results of a journal that I kept during the 2 month trip from
October to December 1998. During my travels, I carried a cheap laptop, wrote a daily
travelogue journal and published the transcript over the internet to a group of friends and aquaintances,
utilizing an ever growing array of Internet cafes in India.
This 'story' has been cleaned up for proper
grammar and spelling, and numerous pictures have been added to create
a pictoral travelogue, but the text remains, for the most part, intact from the original.
This diary of my life experience comes in the form of poetry, with
a variety of poetic styles generating one or more poems daily, starting
in March 2001 and up to the present moment.
Though the greats of poetry will certainly not feel threatened by
the onslaught of this newly found expression, and I won't be quitting
my day job for a position of poet laureate, they are really songs of
The daily poems come directly from pre-verbal inspirations during
meditation sittings, for the most part, (I keep a pen and notepad in my pocket
while I sit) and reflect the joy and freedom of Spirit that has enriched
my life and made me feel like a immeasurably fortunate human being.
A Spiritual Initiation
This journal is actually two journals in one:
In 1974, my spiritual journey was initiated at the age of 18 in a bar!
There I was, sipping some brewskies at the Library, a combo restaurant & bar on Bailey Ave. in
Buffalo, NY, and discovered a book on the shelf, Here Lies The Heart,
the autobiography of a Spanish artist, Mercedes de Acosta, whom, at a critical point in
her life, goes to India and meets the great Sage Ramana Maharishi.
What Ramana said to the woman totally changed the direction
of my life, and was an initiation of my own heart impulse to realization.
Needless to say, I bought the book from the bar, and still have it to this day. This is
a detailed account of that event and contains a portion of the book, a wonderful
"lila" (or story) of Ramana Maharishi which I'm sure few have probably ever heard.