I am angry,
I am jealous.
Ah, Jealousy does not come close; there is no shade of green
to match what I feel.
I am livid.
I cannot bear their stories of full awakening (my three amigos).
That is MY destiny.
How dare they!
I insist it, I DEMAND It.
If it isn't my destiny, I'll find the SOB who wrote my destiny,
and kick his ass until he changes it.
I refuse any and all forms of limitation.
I vow to make my life one of sacrifice.
How can it be any other way?
Anyone who supports my process to full awakening is my friend;
Anyone else, stay the fuck out of my way!
I will not be stopped, though I have no power to manipulate.
This is ALL that I want.
Everything else is useless.
I'll make it my destiny, somehow, someway.
I'll call upon everyone, everything, every force.
I can be so annoying if I have to be.
I cannot bear a single iota of separation, unenlightenment.
No more screens, no more caves, no more amnionic sacs.
I will be so HERE that the entire world
will be a speck of dust in my body of Consciousness.
I will MAKE it happen by the force of my intention.
I will die any number of deaths in order for it to be.
I don't have time, my patience is running out.
Whatever must occur, let it happen a.s.a.p.
I do not have a choice in this matter.
These words are the residue of the heat of my own heart.
That being said, I embrace my life and all that arises.