I am angry, I am jealous. Ah, Jealousy does not come close; there is no shade of green to match what I feel. I am livid. I cannot bear their stories of full awakening (my three amigos). That is MY destiny. How dare they! I insist it, I DEMAND It. If it isn't my destiny, I'll find the SOB who wrote my destiny, and kick his ass until he changes it. I refuse any and all forms of limitation. I vow to make my life one of sacrifice. How can it be any other way? Anyone who supports my process to full awakening is my friend; Anyone else, stay the fuck out of my way! I will not be stopped, though I have no power to manipulate. This is ALL that I want. Everything else is useless. I'll make it my destiny, somehow, someway. I'll call upon everyone, everything, every force. I can be so annoying if I have to be. I cannot bear a single iota of separation, unenlightenment. No more screens, no more caves, no more amnionic sacs. I will be so HERE that the entire world will be a speck of dust in my body of Consciousness. I will MAKE it happen by the force of my intention. I will die any number of deaths in order for it to be. I don't have time, my patience is running out. Whatever must occur, let it happen a.s.a.p. I do not have a choice in this matter. These words are the residue of the heat of my own heart. That being said, I embrace my life and all that arises.